June 21 - Saturday it's our day off perfect because we were compensated the other day. I just need to buy some pants since I only use two pants every week alternating and then wash them on day offs. I arrived home at around 7:30 am from my work training then proceed to sleep to take a rest for awhile. I woke up at around 11 am and immediately rush to take a bath and go to the city. I arrived in the city at past one in the afternoon and ride once again going to downtown city proper where I can buy affordable goods and I was met with streets of many people buying stuffs. I went to a particular store and bought two pants, a pair of sandals and a pair of flip flops since the last flip flops I used at home broke few weeks ago I need a replacement. I went to the mall to take lunch, have halu halo I missed so much as dessert, have a massage, bought a liter of buko shake, bought phone call and text regular load and other things and also cashew nuts and at almost 5 pm rode a taxi going to the modern district shopping centre to have some groceries. I finished grocery at almost 7 pm and walk towards the transport terminal. The jeep that was on standby after I arrived was already full with only a few left in the middle. I was having doubts of riding or not or just wait for the next available jeepney. Since some commuters doesn't want to ride since it's already almost full despite some few spaces left in the middle. I decided to just sit and wait for the next available jeepney. It took several minutes for the jeepney to leave. We waited for several minutes more until one jeepney arrives. It is an average jeepney in color grey with a stripe of color yellow green. I immediately went up to the driver's seat to occupy it so no one can disturb me just went I about to sit I look at the driver and that's when I stopped breathing, my heart pumping a bit faster and that's when I feel spark. I clearly remember him from a year ago I ride as well in the driver's seat looking at his gentle face and his kindness and makes my heart jumps out for him I instantly swoon over him. He stands at around 5'6" or 5'7" in height, fair complexion, average looking and a bit chubby simple appearance but he appeals so much to me. He seems like a huge magnet attracting and pulling me towards him. I remember a year ago when I sat beside him (it's also night time) I can't understand why I got infatuated instantly by him and the silly Cupid hit an arrow to my heart and that night I cannot stop myself thinking about him, about his looks, his face, his demeanor, the moment I sit beside him and all about him and all I can do is pray that I will see him again. At that time I really wanted to be with him to be his partner. I think I've fallen in love with him already. Then days passed and I forgot him not until the following year this day when we meet again my feeling towards him renewed once again. I have so many different emotions once I saw and meet him once again. I want to touch him, to hug him, to kiss him and sleep with him but I could not do that all at once hoping someday if we are really meant for each other. I sat there for a good whole hour only realizing that this is the last trip of the day of the jeepney plying towards our town. I sat there and a lady left her donuts there reserving the seat beside me. The chubby driver who took my heart was away taking a rest from driving and after almost 45 minutes he came to the front and check on the engines of the jeepney to see if its functioning. I cannot stop myself staring at him. Then after almost an hour at the transport terminal since the jeepney is almost full he drove off. I was smiling and very very happy all throughout the ride, there are times when we touch hands and sometimes I try to sleep but I can't so I just look ahead on the streets while making some side glances but one time I cannot help myself but touch him I squeeze his hands holding the clutch and we look at each other quizzically. There is a time that I wanted to lay my head on his shoulder. There is also another time that I wanted to kiss him on the cheeks but I could not do that since there are passengers behind us and beside me looking as well on the front. He always touches the rosary hanging on the crystal glass in front each time we make some connection signals like looking at each other, touching. When I am almost home, I saw him looking at me almost teary eyed that's when I am also almost near tears. When I got off the jeep, I look at him one last time and saw his face sunken a bit. I hope we could meet again soon so we can talk things up between us.
June 24 - I took notice awhile ago some guys frequently in my sights even during our training from May to June 2025 some from newer batches of trainees some are tenured but did not pay much attention to it but only until recently I felt some sparks and connection around some individuals and became curious about them. Some have masked, bald head, preppy old school look and white, some wearing boots all the time, some have curly hairs.
June 29 - The start of our certification doing live calls. We sit near the front door. After an hour, I notice this chubby long haired guy walking toward his cubicle workstation. He is flipping his wet hair down. He sits some few spaces or workstation across my back. After some few calls, I saw him leaning on his back in the chair stairing at me seductively like a girl with his hair down hanging in the chair and his hand on his neck. I quickly look back at my workstation desktop PC because I was quite nervous at what I saw on him and also disbelief at what I saw. I thought he is just exaggerating himself and faking it just to fool me around baka niloloko lang ako ng taong dahil nagbabae baehan he looks feminine and effeminate at that time. But in reality and all honesty, I love what I saw and I love it when individuals are being themselves being true to themselves. Gustung gusto ko yung tao na nagpapakatotoo sa sarili at hindi niya kailangang baguhin ang sarili niya or ang personalidad or karakter na gusto niyang ipakita sa ibang tao para lang ma please niya ang mga ito. Gusto ko ang tunay na tao na nagpapakatotoo. He thought he displeased me after my initial reaction that he man bun his hair after minutes later then just focus on his desktop PC all throughout our shift.
July 4, 2025 - I felt some signs of an early flu and body heat during my time inside the production floor doing live calls. I got scolded by a crying customer asking help for her unaccompanied minor alone at the airport, got reprimanded and humiliated by a training manager. All these stacked up to make me really unwell on this night. I just take over the counter medicines for flu like Decolgen and Bioflu to help prevent me from having a fever and keep going to work but the flu with bloody mucus did not stop until some days later when it totally gives way to fever.
July 9, 2025 - Only a week after we started our live calls I incurred my first absent on this job since I started last May 16, 2025. I got sick with flu and fever and weak body
