Angel in Disguise Could Have Been My Potential Partner

I met him when he was introduced along with Io and another individual who were trainers both foundation and process trainers on the week when we began our foundation training in IGT Solutions Inc. Barangay Mali-ao, Pavia, Iloilo, Philippines as part of the Wave 98 of United Airlines Domestic Reservations. I was smitten instantly by how adorably cute he was, those old school hair, comely face, downturned chinito eyes, beautiful smiles and effeminate ways. Who could not like such a carefree soul with sunshine personality?

I find him an angel disguise because he always comes around on a perfect time when I need comfort and support whenever I feel like something or someone brought me down, he is there to lift me up or to cheer me around. I am aware or I can sense that he also has a liking on me but not sure if he is smitten or attracted by me by just observing his gestures, expressions, body signals etc. I really feel-good vibes and no bitterness in him and just happy thoughts and his energy and lighthearted aura and effeminate moves makes me swoon over him. If I did not make a wrong choice back then, he could have been a potential partner that could have a blissful relationship as time goes by. One time even when he passed my way, I imagine whistling next to him saying "Dammmmmmnnnnnn" while listening to a song either on my phone or wireless wall speaker Manfred Mann's Doh Wah Diddy Diddy.

He is a very likable person. One of a kind - someone you can rarely find in the world today. A cheerful, sweet and positive minded young man someone could only wish for. I just wish happiness and love for him aside from good health and good life. I choose to move on when I left the company not on my own choosing or decision (the management of the company is good, but the production floor management is savage and unforgiving). I just want to say this as I close this chapter in my life and move on with the present (I am happy now with my present company I am working for and hoping I will finally find the love of my life here because my first real love started in this industry). Life has twists and if fate is not cruel, he will find love like the way I pursue love at the present and hopefully have a happily ever after. If there is no choice in the world I could have returned to him and pursue him but let fate and destiny decides for ourselves. 

At my age right now, I dare to take risks and make an effort at pursuing love regardless of the outcome because you will never know or you will never have love if you don't put an extra effort and have the courage to tell the person you love him and you need him in your life only then you can move forward with what the other person would react.

I know in the end we will find our place in the sun. I'm sure we will. 

Personalized Post About Hearing Mass in Leganes, Iloilo - May 24, 2026

 

A Blessed and Peaceful Sunday to You ✨

As the sun rises this morning, marking the beginning of a brand-new week, I found myself sitting in a quiet space of prayer, meditation, and deep reflection. There is a beautiful, sacred stillness about Sundays—a perfect time to pause, listen to the Word of God, and let His grace realign our hearts for the days ahead. I attended Mass today with a spirit full of gratitude, allowing the homily and the scriptures to truly wash over me, leaving me feeling deeply inspired and motivated to face whatever tomorrow brings.

During the quietest, most solemn moments of my prayers today, when the heart speaks most honestly, I lifted up many intentions to the Lord.

🏷️ My Prayers for This Week and Beyond:

• For Health & Protection: I prayed for the gift of good health, strength, and safety—not just for myself, but most especially for my family and all my cherished loved ones.

• For Peace at Home: I begged the Lord to guard our home against bitter arguments and unnecessary conflicts. I prayed for a spirit of patience, understanding, and gentle love to reign within the family, keeping us united.

• For Career & Provision: I asked for continuous blessings, guidance, and favor in our jobs and careers. May we find good fortune in our endeavors, clarity in our decisions, and fulfillment in the work of our hands.

🌹 A Special Prayer Close to My Heart...

But beyond the daily needs, I also offered a very personal, very tender wish to God today. I prayed about love. Specifically, I prayed about you.

In the quiet of the church, I brought your name before the Lord. I prayed that the connection we share is part of His divine plan, and I held onto the hopeful wish that you might be my future—my eternal love. I asked God to bless us, to guide our paths together, and to grant us a blissful, harmonious, and prosperous future side-by-side.

I don't know what the future holds but placing these thoughts in God's hands gives me an overwhelming sense of peace. I wanted to share this grace with you today, hoping it brings a smile to your face and a sense of comfort to your heart.

May God bless your week ahead with endless opportunities, unshakeable peace, and joy. You are in my thoughts, and always in my prayers. 🙏🤍

May the rest of this beautiful Sunday afternoon wrap you in warmth and absolute serenity. As the day gently transitions, I hope you can take a moment to just breathe, relax, and feel how deeply appreciated you are. Sending you sweet thoughts and a gentle reminder that you are on my mind this afternoon. Have a peaceful, lovely rest of the day. 🤍✨

Journal Entry - October 15, 2025

I am busy the entire day Tuesday (October 14) on my laptop doing anything from blogging, uploading videos and gaming (League of Legends). However, in the wee early hours of Wednesday, October 15 at around 4 am as I am watching The Amazing Race Australia Season 6 Episode 11 and seeing Pako of the team Pako and Mori all of a sudden it makes me very sad and lonely I just realized tears keep flowing down from my eyes like a rainstorm because it reminds me of someone a former colleague from my former company. Maybe I just miss him terribly something's telling me I need him, and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He is not necessarily a spitting image or a resemblance or look alike of Pako from the reality show but his aura, enthusiasm, electric vibe sunny personality and sunny pleasant disposition in life that I am drawn to closely resembles him. I like someone like Pako because it makes me happy just as I want some people happy. It would be great to know that while someone makes me happy, I also give that happiness to others.

In Love With an Attached Bisexual Long Hair Who Glance My Way and I Want To Move On Since He Probably Won't Choose Me

I worked as a freelance virtual assistant for quite some time earning a meager income for some personal and other expenses at home. Then last year 2024, our father died from chronic kidney disease, and I have no choice but to find a stable permanent job (mostly office-based on-site location). I searched for a BPO company for a while because I always have bad timing. I almost got hired from a BPO company with healthcare account but at the time it's almost New Year and I have to skip the assessment the final step to hiring so I did not pursue my application. Until one day I got the perfect time to apply for this company. The entire application was done virtually online so I have the convenience of applying at the comforts of my home without the need to apply in person on location.

I did pass the application and started my journey on my first real office job in years. I prayed a lot so I can take this job seriously and do my job effectively and efficiently. I prayed that the company I am working for and with the colleagues I am working with will be kind to me and make this work easy to bear with and not add to stress and pressure. I pray that nothing personal will come out of it including love but just pure business. 

Well, it turns out to be fine at the beginning during the training. I never had an absent and only one 12 minutes late because of transportation (it's difficult to commute at night in a far small farming town away from semi urban areas where the offices are located). The training though is fast paced only 1 month and 3 weeks even if the process and tools are complicated and it takes a while for us to absorb the entire policy and rules. We survived and passed the training and only more than a dozen of us left to do live calls in the production floor. My prayer was effective somehow. I am relieved that I never fell to my feet among my colleagues, but never did I think I will fall to my feet with an individual inside the production floor. 

On the very day we set foot on the production floor to take calls after a few minutes we sit and prepare our desktop pc, I saw this chubby looking man walking like a tough man inside the floor about 5'5" in height with his freshly bathed long hair down swaying her hair like a woman while walking to his workstation. I concentrated for a while answering calls in my workstation which is just a few workstations in front adjacent to him in opposite direction when in several minutes I saw him glancing my way flirting like a gay man having her hair down on his chair. I was shocked in surprise of course because I did not expect anyone to notice me let alone admire me. I think he is exaggerating or faking it because I know a gay guy would not do this immediately, I know something is amiss and that there is something more to that than they show. I was hoping they come clean with themselves. Wish granted and just a few days later the guy let me know that he is bisexual and that he has a girlfriend for how long they were in a committed relationship which I am not interested to learn. I was really hurt and heartbroken then when I returned home, I just cry a little to sleep. When I woke up that afternoon, I got the resolved to not let damning revelation and hurtful truth ruin my day and that I appreciated that he is honest and did not hide it from me. After that I become happy again and this guy really is determined to get to know me because he is slowly gaining traction, he is slowly talking to my colleagues and teammates and that he really wanted to get close to me. Sometimes in just little gestures I know he cares. Suddenly fate has decided for us. I got fired from the job I work for a few months, and the blossoming love story is abruptly got cut short. I was hurt not because I lost a job losing me an earning but because I lost my chance at love. For me, it is more difficult to find love than finding a job nowadays. He is not the only guy who notice me, but I am aware of some others in the office who glances my way, and I am aware of that. At least any one of them has a potential to be a match for me not just that one long hair tattooed bisexual guy who I have a spark and have a deep connection with. I feel like he is my soulmate, but nothing is set in stone and destiny like fate is just a cruel joke. I know this scene really well and I am very sure he will not pursue me after I left the company because we barely know each other and we don't have any contact information we can get a connection with in the first place though the emotional bond and connection is very strong he is also in a relationship with a woman so he is not at a loss but I think very happy and that he forgot about me already not pursuing me anymore. I am slowly losing my thought and feelings about him knowing that he has someone to keep and invest his love, energy and time with. I can move on slowly now though I still have small wounds, yet it is healing, and I can find someone anew someone who I will have a connection with and that he is already I can keep for good. I am gay and I want the same. I want the whole love, attention, time and energy solely or exclusively for me and vice versa. I think I deserve the whole love I receive the same entire whole love I can give to my partner. Thank you for listening for my story. Any questions will be responded, and any feedback will be appreciated. 

Journal Entry - July 18 - 28, 2025

 July 18 - 19, 2025 - I was a complete mess at this time and damn ugly the entire day. It started on the morning of July 18 at around 7 am when I get on this modernized jeepney on my way home from my shift. I encountered this odd couple - the guy seems like having a Tourette syndrome and the girl having skin condition which covered her entire face with someone reddish glow but looks like deep pimple holes all over her face. They are so sweet with each other, and I can feel a little envy then I remember my classmate back in college a beautiful but cute not so tall girl bur with glowing pretty face and long black slick hair who became a special friend to me. There's something mutual understanding between us back then but not that you can label it as an "official relationship". I know she admires me more than just friends but at that time I am not sure about what I feel because I am not ready to be in a committed relationship. I don't want to remember that ugly past again because I almost lost my life when I cut short a meaningful friendship that almost got me into a serious relationship but that was all. After that, I realized I am gay and vow to myself to just love a man my entire life. 

After I arrived home, I confess that ugly past in my mind and I said to myself whoever the guy who will woo me and be part of his life should confess and come clean and after that, things will go smoothly. Things go spiraling downward after that, that night I learned something and it really broke my heart, and I am a total wreck that night and my face is unreadable. During my lunch I just listen to music while eating to somehow ease the pain and went home in so much pain. I cried myself to sleep. The ugly mess carried through the night

July 20 - 21 2025 - My reversal of luck started this night when our TL Lloyd is around as well as AM Cholo, I got so lucky. I only got smooth easy calls all throughout my shift and not one call back or supervisor call with customer. I am just relieved and blessed this day after I heard the Sunday mass by Father Jerry Orbos on the 4 pm mass of July 20. God is really great and never taken me for granted or never forsaken me. He guided me throughout the day and the next and I am happy. 

July 25, 2025 - I was pissed again this Friday night and chaos broke in and my calls got ruined and I am disturbed and distracted. I am so furious and pissed this night I am sarcastic in my tone and into the early hours of Saturday July 26, the production floor seems like silent and quiet minding their own business. Not until few hours until my shift ends when I made an impossible possible. I did make my customer agree to apply for credit card that gives me an incentive / commission. I did not only one but two the last one being an hour before my shift end when someone beside me overheard my conversation, smiled back and it was delicious moment. BUT THEN... I forgot to leave my verification ID (vID) to the agent who I transferred the call to handle the Chase credit card application. I did a cold transfer instead of a WARM transfer!!!!!!!!!!! ughhh... I lost my two incentives.... nevertheless, I am just happy this day.. I sit in a cross-sitting position in my office chair rotating the chair in 180 degrees while taking calls. I feel like a monkey playing around but I know my heart is glowing and I know someone is watching me. 

July 27, 2025 - The day started normal, and I said to myself again if that someone I know is the one I saw last night having a ride with a girl I said God forgive me but never show your face ever again to me ever and don't show up to me and never see me ever again or even look at me. I am just poker face and apathetic because I don't want to lose the momentum of an ecstatic feeling. Later that night, that one show up smiling then I realized oh no I got the mistake I realized I was wrong, and I am really embarrassed, and I hide it. I am just shy but really wanted to show my feelings. I said in the past I am the one who made the effort to know the guy that I like only to end up disappointed and futile. So, I told myself whoever is really REALLY DAMN serious with me should be the one to make an effort with me so I can also have my moves on him I will also make an effort once he makes his NINJA MOVES! Before I am predictable but now, I just don't know what else I can do once I get closer to this guy. I remember the flirt does in my previous company maybe something like that or what me and my colleagues and good friends does during our shift we are naughty playing around touching my body and all maybe because I crave for love and affection that's why. But I can behave and be decent as well, I can adjust maybe some flirtations and somewhat cute, adorable, affectionate gestures before, during or after shifts. 

Journal Entry - June 23 - July 12, 2025

June 21 - Saturday it's our day off perfect because we were compensated the other day. I just need to buy some pants since I only use two pants every week alternating and then wash them on day offs. I arrived home at around 7:30 am from my work training then proceed to sleep to take a rest for awhile. I woke up at around 11 am and immediately rush to take a bath and go to the city. I arrived in the city at past one in the afternoon and ride once again going to downtown city proper where I can buy affordable goods and I was met with streets of many people buying stuffs. I went to a particular store and bought two pants, a pair of sandals and a pair of flip flops since the last flip flops I used at home broke few weeks ago I need a replacement. I went to the mall to take lunch, have halu halo I missed so much as dessert,  have a massage, bought a liter of buko shake, bought phone call and text regular load and other things and also cashew nuts and at almost 5 pm rode a taxi going to the modern district shopping centre to have some groceries. I finished grocery at almost 7 pm and walk towards the transport terminal. The jeep that was on standby after I arrived was already full with only a few left in the middle. I was having doubts of riding or not or just wait for the next available jeepney. Since some commuters doesn't want to ride since it's already almost full despite some few spaces left in the middle. I decided to just sit and wait for the next available jeepney. It took several minutes for the jeepney to leave. We waited for several minutes more until one jeepney arrives. It is an average jeepney in color grey with a stripe of color yellow green. I immediately went up to the driver's seat to occupy it so no one can disturb me just went I about to sit I look at the driver and that's when I stopped breathing, my heart pumping a bit faster and that's when I feel spark. I clearly remember him from a year ago I ride as well in the driver's seat looking at his gentle face and his kindness and makes my heart jumps out for him I instantly swoon over him. He stands at around 5'6" or 5'7" in height, fair complexion, average looking and a bit chubby simple appearance but he appeals so much to me. He seems like a huge magnet attracting and pulling me towards him. I remember a year ago when I sat beside him (it's also night time) I can't understand why I got infatuated instantly by him and the silly Cupid hit an arrow to my heart and that night I cannot stop myself thinking about him, about his looks, his face, his demeanor, the moment I sit beside him and all about him and all I can do is pray that I will see him again. At that time I really wanted to be with him to be his partner. I think I've fallen in love with him already. Then days passed and I forgot him not until the following year this day when we meet again my feeling towards him renewed once again. I have so many different emotions once I saw and meet him once again. I want to touch him, to hug him, to kiss him and sleep with him but I could not do that all at once hoping someday if we are really meant for each other. I sat there for a good whole hour only realizing that this is the last trip of the day of the jeepney plying towards our town. I sat there and a lady left her donuts there reserving the seat beside me. The chubby driver who took my heart was away taking a rest from driving and after almost 45 minutes he came to the front and check on the engines of the jeepney to see if its functioning. I cannot stop myself staring at him. Then after almost an hour at the transport terminal since the jeepney is almost full he drove off. I was smiling and very very happy all throughout the ride, there are times when we touch hands and sometimes I try to sleep but I can't so I just look ahead on the streets while making some side glances but one time I cannot help myself but touch him I squeeze his hands holding the clutch and we look at each other quizzically. There is a time that I wanted to lay my head on his shoulder. There is also another time that I wanted to kiss him on the cheeks but I could not do that since there are passengers behind  us and beside me looking as well on the front. He always touches the rosary hanging on the crystal glass in front each time we make some connection signals like looking at each other, touching. When I am almost home, I saw him looking at me almost teary eyed that's when I am also almost near tears. When I got off the jeep, I look at him one last time and saw his face sunken a bit. I hope we could meet again soon so we can talk things up between us.

June 24 - I took notice awhile ago some guys frequently in my sights even during our training from May to June 2025 some from newer batches of trainees some are tenured but did not pay much attention to it but only until recently I felt some sparks and connection around some individuals and became curious about them. Some have masked, bald head, preppy old school look and white, some wearing boots all the time, some have curly hairs.

June 29 - The start of our certification doing live calls. We sit near the front door. After an hour, I notice this chubby long haired guy walking toward his cubicle workstation. He is flipping his wet hair down. He sits some few spaces or workstation across my back. After some few calls, I saw him leaning on his back in the chair stairing at me seductively like a girl with his hair down hanging in the chair and his hand on his neck. I quickly look back at my workstation desktop PC because I was quite nervous at what I saw on him and also disbelief at what I saw. I thought he is just exaggerating himself and faking it just to fool me around baka niloloko lang ako ng taong dahil nagbabae baehan he looks feminine and effeminate at that time. But in reality and all honesty, I love what I saw and I love it when individuals are being themselves being true to themselves. Gustung gusto ko yung tao na nagpapakatotoo sa sarili at hindi niya kailangang baguhin ang sarili niya or ang personalidad or karakter na gusto niyang ipakita sa ibang tao para lang ma please niya ang mga ito. Gusto ko ang tunay na tao na nagpapakatotoo. He thought he displeased me after my initial reaction that he man bun his hair after minutes later then just focus on his desktop PC all throughout our shift.

July 4, 2025 - I felt some signs of an early flu and body heat during my time inside the production floor doing live calls. I got scolded by a crying customer asking help for her unaccompanied minor alone at the airport, got reprimanded and humiliated by a training manager. All these stacked up to make me really unwell on this night. I just take over the counter medicines for flu like Decolgen and Bioflu to help prevent me from having a fever and keep going to work but the flu with bloody mucus did not stop until some days later when it totally gives way to fever.

July 9, 2025 - Only a week after we started our live calls I incurred my first absent on this job since I started last May 16, 2025. I got sick with flu and fever and weak body 

Finally I Returned To My Boarding House

Today I eventually returned to my boarding house after a month since I left it on March 12. My youngest sister who arrived from Estancia went home because there is a long break - there is a festival in Estancia then there is Eid'l Fitr the next day Friday April 21. 

I left home at around 3:30 in the afternoon and arrived in the boarding an hour later. I did a little cleaning in the room since leaving it for a month had left it in dirt, dusts and cobwebs. I ordered halo-halo in the evening to cool myself of the intense summer heat. 

At around 8 pm, I took a refreshing bath and just wear a white tank top, an old boxer shorts with gaping hole at the bottom at the balls part and my favorite Corcoran field combat boots. I initially planned to wear this combat boots non-stop without un wearing or removing them off my feet for a month but then my work and stay here would not be that long, so I'll just do it some other time. 

I am only wearing my Corcoran field combat boots without any clothing to sleep the night since it is so hot these days. Summer heat this year is so intense I could always sleep naked at night. 

I Hesitate to Return to My Boarding House Upon Mother's Sentiments

 On this day I am preparing to return to my boarding house in Road 1, Aganan, Pavia. I already packed some things in my backpack to bring and I took a bath in the early afternoon I think around 2 pm. I am getting ready to go back when mother airs her sentiments on me that she will have difficulty at home with no men or masculine figure around to watch out the house and also look out for them since they are elderly, weak and fragile they need some assistance and someone to look out for them. Fortunately, after I took the bath, I wore casual house clothes and decided to just postpone my return to the boarding house the next day. I just play League of Legends the rest of the afternoon, continue working on for my blog article - Filipino greatest actors and actresses listing their greatest performances, watch television and relax a bit. 

Clumsy and Freak Slippery Sunday

 The day started just fine and I handwash 2 of my shorts I wear at home every day outside in a blue container rain catchment when I heard a commotion when, so I went in and saw father on the floor. It turns out he slipped on the wet floor when he came out of the bathroom in a towel. He slipped with his feet and his back and head on the floor so me and mother immediately lifted him up and put some chili liniment on his back head, back down to his legs. Mom told me to apply some on his butt but I wont.

At night we have to collect water using a hose attached to a faucet outside at some washbasin and buckets for washing purposed in the sink since the water tank used to store water have some damaged holes in it. The source of the water was once a water well before but then it was closed with a circular galvanized iron sheet lid. However, mother who put the hose in these storage containers found in the kitchen forgot about this to eat and then sleep and I am not aware she is collecting water and after awhile when I went in the kitchen I was surprised to find out the containers had been filled up and the excess water cause the kitchen to flood. I then woke up mother to help me clean up and drained up the water. It took us awhile to drained up all the water. I then ate dinner of rice and sardines in tomato sauce. 

My Ruined Saturday

My day went off to a bad start. I woke up at around 9:40 am and went downstairs to sleep further only to find out the PLDT Home Fibr wifi was turned on early today. I wanted it to be turned on after I just totally wake up in my sleep in the couch at past 10 am. I attempted to turn it off from the switch but the sibling next to me (who once suffered from typhoid fever) is persistent to turn it on because she is using it for whatever purposes she may have and keeps murmuring mumbling words or maybe even cursing because I shut it off. I also mumbled something and was thinking of how to get back and then think of an idea. I will not settle the wifi and internet bills on its due date to automatically disconnect the wifi and Internet connection. I will only pay the bills after almost a week to restore the connection. I call her names such as Baghak Tipuson, Tipuson, Typhus girl etc.

After awhile, the Tipuson ask father for some money to buy pork in the market but to my shock, I heard him furiously responding refusing to give money to buy pork because he doesn't want to eat pork for himself. He is hot-tempered or temperamental, self-loathing, selfish, impulsive vile man I ever met. He is what you call dirty nasty old man (DOM - stands for dirty old man). Until I talk about it with him but to my great shock he shouted responding he doesn't want to eat pork, if we want we can buy our own but he will not give any money to buy pork because he doesn't eat pork but I told him he just ate a pork soup with pork in it this week and he angrily responded it was a while ago even if he just ate few days ago. He is suffering from a mild cognitive impairment a mild form of memory loss.

The night is not also different. The bald-headed pervert Muslim ugly and filthy man barge into the house to buy some phone load or credit while smoking a cigarette I can smell it. He wants to cause me disease. He is a bastard. He also came to inform me that a lot of devices got connected to our home Wifi maybe because of internet sharing.  I tried to do something but the only way to keep them out of the wifi is to block their devices by putting them in the blacklist, but I can only do that if I sign a waiver authorizing me to do it so later I will do it so I can block devices which should be needed to be blocked so we can use our wifi and broadband properly. 

Friday Went To The City

I woke up at 9:24 am to go downstairs to continue my sleep in the couch but I first notice my Shopee delivery item - it is a water test kit because I suffered from acute gastroenteritis from the dirty contaminated water I drink and use for cooking from a mineral water delivery in the boarding house I rented so I need to test the quality of each water I consume and use for cooking from now on. 

I am quite annoyed with father because he takes him so long to finish taking a bath when usually he took a bath at around 9 am but this time he took a bath at around 10 am so I was a bit pissed taking a bath at quarter to 11 am. I went to the city and went to do my business as usual. Went to have a massage at Robinsons Place - Iloilo Main mall and bought a medicine Cogent DB+ at Mercury Drugstore and go to another mall SM City Iloilo to buy some groceries but I forgot to buy Hershey's chocolate I'll just buy elsewhere the next day. At the Watson's drugstore adjacent the supermarket I went to buy an inhaler but I put down the groceries so I could transact well with the cashier but being absent minded at the time I did not only pick up my own grocery but also picked up the grocery by an elder woman who was also buying at the drugstore I apologized to her and due to the embarrassment I left quickly to leave my groceries at the baggage counter to buy a coconut smoothie or shake outside. I left the mall at around 4:45 pm and rode a taxi left by a group of family who don't want to pay the exact fare in going to their town in Oton. 

The summer heat is too much to bear and I could not contain myself I am sleepy and exhausted as I wait in line in the jeepney terminal and once inside I can rest awhile. While in Mandurriao the jeepney went to refuel at the gas station and just a few meters from gas station in the plaza when the traffic enforcer caught the jeepney overloading with passengers with some hanging outside and issued a penalty ticket and get his license and will just redeem it once he paid the penalty. It takes awhile to finish the issuance and I feel so hot and exhausted inside like a grilled fish compact inside a canned sardine. 

Thursday Nephew Been Bullied

It used to be a usual ordinary day me, mother and father if not for that phone call which shifted the day's mood. 

I woke just fine but after several minutes when mother has cooked pochero and about to grill liempo or pork barbecue for lunch when mother receive a phone call from sister informing us that nephew has been hit by a bicycle chain on his arms and is being bullied. There is a time another bully is waiting for my nephew outside the school promises and we feel he doesn't have any good intention. 

Sister acted quickly making a letter addressed to the principal. Meanwhile, mother is frantically think for actions for this. Will she go directly to the school principal or the guidance counselor or will she go to the municipal department of social welfare. She is disturbed and uneasy she could not cook anymore for thinking. 

After lunch, mother went to see the teacher and guidance counselor to talk about the issue and she went home calmly. Nephew arrived an hour later after watching classmates playing badminton. 

I played League of Legends the rest of the night playing Tristana. I am exhausted and tired of playing and not winning a single game. I was disappointed and exhausted I wanted to lay down but I need to eat  and resumes playing thereafter. 

Wednesday Out Of House First Time After Holy Week

I woke up to go downstairs to continue to sleep after awhile after immediately went out after taking a bath thinking someone is calling from outside the house. I am also mad that he boiled eggs for his breakfast formula to drink in a red small kettle we used to boil water for coffee and other drinks. I told him that he can use other pots for boiling eggs, but he simply responded it's just fine using it. He is really losing his mind like someone with dementia even at the time when he was still in his right state of mind and working in the education sector, he really has a low logical sense.

I went out of the house for the first time after Holy Week. I went to the market to eat pork lomi soup. I was thinking if I could pork barbecue for lunch but then I thought there is something in the table for the lunch which I forgot to check before going out. I then went to 7/11 convenience store to buy 2 L Coke, Sting Energy drink, Gatorade Tropical Fruit and Hershey's chocolate with walnut. Inside the market I went to buy 1/4 kilo calamansi or Philippine lime. In one of the market stores outside I bought 1/2 kilo brown sugar, 230 gms. Bear Brand milk and in another store Extra Joss energy drink.

I went home and saw my nephew in the room of her mother watching Youtube on his phone while having lunch. After a while mom also arrived from prayer meeting in their prayer house near the river area. She told me she did not cook any viands for lunch which I regret not buying pork barbecue.

Around 20 minutes past 12, my nephew ask for money allowance to go to school, and a neighbor friend ask him if he doesn't want to go to school because they are going he still keeps on watching Youtube on his phone without realizing he was left by his friend until he heard the sound of a motor bicycle pulling away then he realized he is being left he shouted not to go to school scowling and growling because he was not given money in time to catch his ride. Me and mother give him money just to encourage him to go to school in which he begrudgingly obliged. 

In the afternoon we are thinking what we will have for dinner when I suggest sardines, but mom said mackerel, but I waited until the night to ask my nephew to buy what we ask - 2 cans mackerel sardines and chicken feeds because he was so engrossed in playing Roblox in his mother's laptop.

At 8 pm I feel dizzy and migraine, so I take a rest and lay in the couch for a while then comes to use laptop to play The Sims 4. After 30 minutes when mom ask me to switch to Global Sports Channel for the wrestling I feel really dizzy, woozy and has neck pain and migraine so I went upstairs to sleep for at least 45 minutes then went down to watch Dirty Linen Philippine drama series.

Lazy Monday Ends Up In Conflict

I woke up at about 9:49 am to an almost lazy day and almost everyone in the house is still sleeping. I went downstairs to find mother sleeping in the couch while listening to the broadcast in 3 in 1 emergency radio light of their religious community Ang Dios Gugma. Youngest sister and nephew is in the room outside the house - youngest sister is already awake browsing her phone while nephew is still sleeping. Our father went to claim his monthly pension through his automated teller machine.

I went to sleep in the room of my younger sister next to me adjacent to my father's room but at around 10:10 am I was awakened by my phone's alarm but I slept for a few more minutes until I woke up.

We waited for father to arrive from the market. He arrived shortly before noon. He bought some cookie bread, liniment oil, aspartame sugar and ice cream for my nephew. After a short while I told him mother was not able to cook something for lunch because there isn't anything to cook so I ask to give me some money for us to buy some cook food in a food stall in the market because it is too late to cook something for lunch because it is past 12 noon already. I ordered our neighbor who I always ask for errands to buy us some cook food and soft drinks. He bought 3 servings of monggo sabaw with some meats, 4 servings of pork barbecue, 3 serving of chicken or beef liver I could not distinguish and a 2-liter Coca Cola soda drink.

In the afternoon I private message my younger sister through his Facebook messenger that we don't have some viands. During the night I was thinking that I just made nice request from her that she bought something for dinner - she bought bangus and she cook to dinner. But to her dismay she argues and asking and complaining if father got his pension and why are we asking her for some viands for some food what are we doing that we did not do anything to cook food and that we did not buy some provisions in the market to cook. We explained that it was too late to cook something for lunch since its already noon time, so we just have to buy some cook food in the market food stall, but she interpreted my request as something awful and nonsense. I think she had a bout of typhus today because she suffered from typhoid fever in the past and that the illness makes her suffer a lot that she still carries it today or maybe throughout her lifetime. I call her typhus girl or my typhus sibling because she makes some annoying behavior and some impractical actions from time to time. She and our youngest sibling unfortunately was afflicted by typhoid fever once in their life before that explains their irrational behavior. I just learned never to ask with her again due to her unpredictable behavior and unstable mental condition. I just want to avoid and don't want to invest my time talking and asking from her again. She hates everyone and is not talking and not making friends with anyone. It feels so lonely if I am her because she doesn't make peace and don't mingle with anyone around. She feels like she can do everything, but she has just so much pride and ego with her she can't do one or two here. She is just fortunate to live here because she has us to help with housework. I thought to myself if she can live independently alone in a rental house or room in a different location which she did last year I know she cannot live alone on her own. I have too much to bear from that typhus sister who is next to me.

Black Saturday for Catholic Holy Week

Woke up at around 8:49 am today when my mother went up to the bed to look for the lighter. I use the light to fire an mosquito repellent incense we call katol because the teens playing Christ's apostles arrived to pray with us. We pray for a short while and have them a quick snack of ice cream and some cookies.

Nothing much of the day I played The Sims 4 with different households and watch movies. Lunch was rice and pancit bam-i which taste delicious, soft drinks, buchi food ball and ice cream for dessert. 

I browse Recon.com again after a long time and also send some response to my accounts in eBay and AirBnB. 

We prepare some rosaries and other religious items such as crucifix, Virgin Mary etc. to be blessed later with Holy Water.

At around 11 pm, the church acolyte assigned in our street arrived to bless our religious items like the holy rosary beads, crucifix, Virgin Mary etc. 

Good Friday for the Catholic Holy Week

I went to bed early morning of Good Friday but before that I downloaded ghost hunting apps to see how it works and if it detects some ghosts. It did detect some ghosts mostly from Middle Ages pre-colonial period ranges from 1376 to 1653 which so old and I don't know if I can believe it because I live in a small town where it was only founded in 1754 and before that this town is sparsely populated with many thick foliage, grass overgrowth, wooded grassland and forested mountainous area. After a short while, my mother awakens up by her pee and she could hardly sleep she just took some coffee and folded a lot of stacks up clothes and my sister is preparing boiled water for her bath to go to work to a call center in SM Strata Iloilo. 

Few hours after I slept, I was awakened by some people who went inside the house talking I think it was around 6 am but I don't mind so I went back to sleep only to be disturbed again by some motorbikes roaming around and after that my father's coughing and talking also disturbed me for awhile until I fall asleep again. I woke up at around 9:30 am due to searing heat in the ceiling less top floor whose roof is a galvanized iron sheet, so I went downstairs to sleep again occasionally awaken by some noises but slept through until more than 20 minutes past 11 in the morning. I watched Cedie a Filipino film based on the novel Little Fauntleroy, Magkapatid, Saan Ka Man Naroroon etc. 

I checked online for my social media and also watch the streaming of Seven Last Words of Jesus Christ broadcasted from the Jaro Metropolitan Cathedral, Jaro, Iloilo City while also streaming my gameplay of The Sims 4 building up an amusement park in Windenburg World. 

Later in the day I streamed religious films from The Song of Bernadette (1943), The Reluctant Saint (1962) and The Bells of St. Mary's (1945). I also ate steamed oysters we call talaba for snack. At night, I watched Magnifico, a 2003 Filipino film and Cecil B. DeMille's 1956 epic film The Ten Commandments, a sound version of his original silent film of the same title. 

Maundy Thursday for Catholic Holy Week

Nothing much this day Maundy Thursday. I just streamed on a Facebook page I created about biblical and religious films this Lenten week so others can watch and reflect and meditate on their lives. I also watch some Filipino language films on television like Dubai, Tanging Yaman, Tyanak, Himala, Filipino-dubbed English movie The Bible and Mysteries at the Museum hosted by Don Wildman on The Travel Channel.

I notice there is a constant loud hammering of something like someone is doing some home repairs or whatnot and also some heard some soldering iron in our neighbors turns out that bald head bearded Muslim perv is doing some carpentry or housework on this Maundy Thursday and I don't bother to know further because he is a creep I don't want to investigate further. 

My afternoon snack is two sandwich which I put some sweetened condensed milk as the spread. Hmmm sweet and delicious but I better watch out my blood sugar. I also order an errand again from the same neighbor relative I always ask every time this time ask him to buy me 1/4 kilo sugar and 90 grams powdered Bear Brand milk. 

Holy Wednesday for Catholic Holy Week

I woke up today at past 9 am to some salespeople selling some safety regulator and hose for liquefied petroleum gas we use for cooking. I salesman about 5 feet 7 inches or 5'8" tall pimpled face with lots of holes and dusky man talking to us and explaining about fire safety of using liquefied petroleum gas (LPG) and promoting his safety regulator and hose but they are a bit expensive, and we don't have money to purchase now.

I could not trust these salespeople because a lot has been said about them before that these LPG safety regulator salespeople are not trustworthy people and that this is a big scam, at least more than one of them are visiting a home and if the people in the house are busy engaging in their discussion and promotion of their product they become so engrossed that they lost their awareness of their surrounding and that the other people with the man talking will go inside and steal some things without the residents aware of them snooping around. Beware of these LPG safety salespeople or other salespeople going around just be vigilant and watchful.

I wanted to go to the market to buy some things but changed my mind at the last minute and assist instead a neighbor to register her newly bought sim card required by the law under Republic Act No. 11934 or commonly known as the Sim Registration Act. She and her young daughters watched a film I Do! I Die!! (D'yosko Day) (1997) in Cinema One of GSAT Satellite TV and first part of It's Showtime in Kapamilya Network Channel 22. 

In the afternoon I played The Sims 4. My lunch was just rice, pinakbet and lamayo pinakas na karaho fish. I also ask a neighbor relative to buy me 2L Coke and 2 serving of arroz caldo and he arrived a short while later. 

My neighbor creep who is a Muslim wants to break his vocal cord and sing out loud annoyingly and atrociously a classic song during the night of Holy Wednesday. This creep (who was stocky bald headed and bearded in his 40s) has freaked me out a lot in the past with his creepy behavior and obsession on me because I wear combat boots which I realized he also has the same fetish as me - boots fetish. He is attracted to any guys wearing boots most especially high cut lace up boots like combat boots. He also desires to buy a pair of boots and wear them but could not afford to buy one. 

Holy Tuesday for the Catholic Holy Week

Nothing much today. I woke up at least 15 minutes after 10 am in the morning and do my usual routine - gargle and have a hot coffee with milk and setup my laptop which I kept in the cabinet for the first time in in several months and television to watch some movies and shows.

My mother is not around because she went for the Lenten recollection of her religious group community, Ang Dios Gugma in Barangay Hibao-an, Mandurriao, Iloilo City. 

It was just me and my father during the day because my nephew is in school and just home for lunch and his out in the afternoon. I fed the cat who keeps coming inside the house to beg for some food which I gave fishbones. 

I slept in the room on the left side opposite my father's room. This room where my sister next to me sleep and sometimes with my nephew and our youngest sister. I slept there at around 3:30 in the afternoon only to jolted awake by ant bites inside my shorts specifically at my crotch so I have to shake it off to rid of the ants and thinking maybe the food that was left when my nephew took a lunch there feast on it but I never saw any food remains so I just dust off the bed with clothes. 

Nothing much on the rest of the afternoon but a postman left a letter for my eldest cousin about her property, and I asked a neighbor relative for an errand to buy me a 1.5 Liter Coca Cola and 3 sticks of pork barbecue. 

At night I was asked by my sister to fry the Magnolia ready to cook homemade fried chicken while I am still playing The Sims 4 so paused the game and fry it and go back to play the game while I am cooking waiting for the chicken to be cooked brown. 

Holy Monday for Catholic Holy Week

Nothing so special for today still the same regular day and things came as usual as every day. Since there is a shift in the academic school year since the pandemic in 2020 the children have classes even in the sweltering heat of the summer.

My nephew came home complaining that he got injured when a schoolmate forces my nephew to carry him on his back, but he must be too heavy for my nephew to carry on his back which causes him to outbalance and fell on his knee causing a minor injury.

When he came home from school after about an hour, I asked him to buy me 1/4 kilo sugar and sweetened condensed milk in the sari sari store to which he obliged I gave him 100 pesos and returned with a change of I think 30 pesos. 

My mom came told me something gross in the kitchen sink and I came to check it out only to find out my father left his chamber pot made of plastic and shapes like a pitcher, so I jokingly asked to my mother, "Did you prepare some juice on that pitcher?" pointing towards the location of the pitcher which makes my mother laugh. My father is somehow suffering some kind of dementia or Alzheimer's disease because he keeps on forgetting things, he keeps asking the same question over and over again, keeps doing some unusual things not of a normal person with a sound right mind, keeps mumbling or talking to himself even if no one is around him even if he is in bed sometimes, he can be heard mumbling or murmuring. 

I decided to prank father again tonight at about 11:30 pm while he was watching Youtube on the smart television on his room. I connected my phone's Youtube app to the smart television's Youtube app in his room while he was watching. I played the Nick Crowley's Darkest Videos 2 with the Creepy looking mustachioed bearded man knocking on the door he was pissed off why this creepy man always play on his television's Youtube app and also Sabog Sabog Tayo parody music video of Michael V. I laugh silently while listening to him mumbling about the things he saw in the television.